For Love of the Game

I want very badly to have that high school girl's body again. I want to ski for a week's time and not be tired. I want to run for 3 miles and not feel pain in the lower back. I want to throw a football without shoulder limitations. I want to play baseball and not be sore the next day fr sprinting to first base. I want to go rock climbing without worrying about my limits. I want to engage in all athletic, physical, and sporty opportunity carefreely as I did just a few years back. Most of all, I just want to play tennis like I did back in high school... everyday for 3 hours plus... just having fun... exercising... accepting challenges to be better in my game. I remember being able to serve buckets and buckets of tennis balls without any soreness in my arm/shoulder. Now, i can barely even hold that darn racquet in my hand without some pain in my wrist or arm or shoulder. Stinky!
Yes, I feel like I have the body of a 50 year old woman. Not fair! Why am I trapped in a deteriorating shell when all the inside wants to do is explore, go, and travel... I question the Creator. Sometimes I demand an answer. And other times I just want to cry. And then I think about why he has given me this imperfect body, this blemished body. I rationalize in my mind why he had to give me, of all people, a body which does not function to my heart's desire. Why did he not give my physical problems to those who don't have the athletic desires and adventurous soul? Why me? And then I realize that he already has given me more than I am worthy to ask for of Him. Who am I to demand an answer from the Almighty Creator? Who am I to question how he has created me? Who am I to judge Him as unfair? Who am I to stand before the Father who gave His pure and beloved Son for someone as little as me?
I guess for now I can just love the game that I have always loved... not allow myself too close to the court or I may be tempted to play. I know i will succumb to the temptation; and I will give it my all until I could no longer take the pain. That seems to happen every time these days, though every time seems less and less. Yes, I do love the game, and knowing that i can no longer play breaks my heart.